If you've gotten to this link from the end of Ignited, I would like to quickly thank you once again for reading another story of mine. I can’t believe it hit almost 100k…long stories really are so much fun to write.With that being said, I believe my writing days in this fandom are coming to an end, which breaks my heart to say, because minsung mean so much to me…But I have a few (okay, maybe a lot) of things to say before I say goodbye!I tried to come back and enjoy my own space, but the constant bullying, hate, and discourse really is getting too much for me. In every aspect—against me, against others, sfw, & nsfw.I also am continuously frustrated with the lies spread about me, saying I write or support underage/grooming content which is simply not true, or other random things that I’ve never done, and people with a large volume of followers spread these lies. This always brings me hate/death threats/loss of relationships, and it’s interesting how much of a toll it takes on me. Anyone who interacts with me is harassed by these people, and it’s really messed up. (And before you take this paragraph and run with it—make sure to read the rest!)There are accounts who have never spoken a word to me or even engaged with or read my content, calling me a bad person, accusing me of things that I’ve never said, never done, and pretending they know me. It’s very weird, and this has been going on for a year…To be transparent and honest about the situation:Yes, it is true I wrote one fic, brothers best friend, written based on personal experience, where in the first chapter only, they dry hump each other. Both characters are underage. It was mistagged as “no underage sex”, not purposely, but I took it down because I completely understood the discomfort. Any oral or penetrative sex from that fic took place years later, when they are both adults. Minho left, had guilt, and I was not trying to romanticize it, but the reality of falling in love when it isn’t the right time. The age difference is the same between my partner and I (3 years) and we are still together. Whether the age difference is acceptable to you or not is for you to determine on your own. That is what happened. There was no grooming in this fic. No minors were engaging in sexual activity with an adult. Anything else you’ve read or heard is not true. This is not an excuse. This is what happened.It was a mistake to recreate this on real people. I’ve stated this before, and took responsibility for what I wrote. It was wrong, you don’t have to forgive me, I understand that completely. But genuinely, I meant no ill intent, yet I failed others, so regardless, I apologize and take responsibility for it. I just hope that if one day you make a mistake, people would be willing to forgive you. But continuing to say and tell others I support this content is simply not true, and forcing others to hate me because you don’t like me based on snowballing lies is very frustrating. I do not write or engage with this type of content or any dark content, for that matter. You can check my ao3 if that would please you.Regarding the discourse on endgame, where the hatred for me stems from, I have nothing else to say on this matter besides this: Please read endgame for yourself before listening to the people who admitted to never reading it give their opinions on this story. I listened to every ounce of feedback and never once disregarded anyone’s feelings. Whether we agreed or not does not mean I was dismissive. I listened and understood the differences of opinion on this matter. I had endgame reread by those willing to help, and parts were even rewritten or reworded. A lot of people love endgame, a lot of people hate it. Either way, that is your opinion, but if you’re going to have one, make it for yourself.Side note, Twitter literally sucks. The app is so broken. The block feature is dumb, and muting words just doesn’t work.However, I don’t plan on giving up writing completely—it’s kind of a dream of mine to write and publish a book…even if only one person buys, I think that would be so cool.Things are going very well in my life right now, and I don’t want to ruin my happiness with this again. I was very at peace when I took time off. I tried to come back for my friends and those who have supported me, and I’m so sorry, but it didn’t work out.I think raesan is signing off, for good this time 💔 (I’m sure those who aggressively hate me are very thrilled with this news!!! And I’m sure you’ll continue to bully people who say anything nice about me ever, since you’re always weirdly there in the shadows waiting to drag me and tear me down!!! 💜)To everyone who has ever supported me, you mean the absolute world. Every single comment, every kudos, every kind word, you really always made my day. It’s so hard for me to express my gratitude, and I am rather shy, so I get worried it doesn’t come off as grateful enough. But genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, I love you so much.I wish I could say it’s been fun, but for a while, it’s brought me nothing but pain. There were good times, and I thank you for them. But now, we’ll leave it in the past, and try to move on 💜Thank you for reading as alwaysMaybe we’ll cross paths again somedayI hope you are well and stay well, thank you, and remember to love minsung-Rae
05/01/25
Update: Bullies should never win. I hope you'll read my new fic <3
07/20/25